Whatโs Your Truth? Ep.1 Series Intro
Iโm using Lemon8 as my mini journal, a space to share my thoughts and my truth. Youโre welcome to share yours in the comments if you feel led. I know someone out there might be feeling the same way but doesnโt know how to say it.
If Iโm being honest, I donโt have a positive answer for why Iโm struggling with my faith. Prayer doesnโt feel like the only answer anymore. I want words that actually explain what Iโm going through, why I feel so hurt by God and by people who claim to know Him.
I could talk about how God saved me and how I was on fire for Him for yearsโฆ but what happened? What happened to my faith? Somewhere along the way, I fell back into sin, temptation, and fear.
Iโve learned painful lessons from people who claimed to love me, yet left me hating myself even more. Iโve turned to corngraphy (replace the โcโ for a โpโ), not from desire, but from fear of being inexperienced or left behind. Ironically, Iโm still a virgin, not by choice, but because Iโve been around people who twisted my image so much that I stopped believing I was worth loving.
People say things like, โGod has someone for you,โ or, โIf you lose weight and get yourself together, youโll find your person.โ But truthfully, I donโt want to be found. I donโt want to be seen or heard. Iโve been quiet for so long that speaking up now feels wrong, even when itโs just me telling my truth.
Thereโs more to this story โ but this is where I am right now. Just processing. Just being honest. Just sharing a little more.
๐ฅบ๐ Thank you for reading! Thank you for sharing!
Whatโs Your Truth?
Many people face periods of doubt and struggle in their faith journeys, often feeling isolated and unsure how to express their inner conflicts. It is important to acknowledge that questioning faith does not mean losing it but rather seeking deeper understanding. Sharing personal stories about faith struggles can create a sense of community and support among individuals who feel similarly, breaking the silence around difficult experiences. Faith is not a static experience; it can evolve over time as we confront lifeโs challenges, pain, and confusion. Sometimes, the answers we once found comforting no longer suffice, and this can lead to feelings of hurt both from spiritual beliefs and from people who may have misrepresented or mishandled those beliefs. It's common to feel scared or burdened by expectations surrounding religious or personal identity, including pressures related to relationships, self-worth, and lifestyle choices. Recognizing the impact of external judgmentโwhether about faith, personal struggles, or societal normsโon oneโs self-esteem is crucial. Itโs natural to question when others who claim to know God cause pain or misunderstand the individual behind the faith. Such experiences can complicate the connection to faith, making prayer and traditional practices feel insufficient. By opening up about these emotions and inviting others to share their truths, we foster empathy and healing. Itโs valuable to create a safe space for honest reflection without judgment. This kind of vulnerability helps individuals move through fear, temptation, and feelings of being unworthy toward a more authentic self-understanding. If you are grappling with your faith or personal identity, consider journaling your thoughts, connecting with supportive communities, or seeking faith leaders who honor questions and doubts. Remember that your truth is valid and that healing often starts with simply acknowledging where you are right now. This ongoing process is a powerful step toward reclaiming your voice and finding peace in honesty.
And god understands how you feel at this very moment. Keep trusting him and ask the Holy Spirit to help you get closer to god.this journey is not easy but it worth it.